I’m not a big fan of bucket lists, but getting really good at yoga has been on my to do list for almost 15 years.
I actually wanted to become really good at yoga before I even tried it, like that child who dreams of being a gymnast, or a race car driver, or an airplane pilot, not really knowing what it takes to be one. I can’t really tell why I was so attracted to yoga at first. Perhaps it was the allure of all those women’s magazine portrayals of flawlessly fit women in serene yoga poses I browsed through as a teenager. Or perhaps, I just wanted to find a way to meditate, because back then I used to think of yoga as meditation exercises that required yoga uniforms (as illustrated by my magazines). Or perhaps– and this is the possibility I like the most (LOL!), there was this innate cosmic affinity that lead me to yoga in the first place. All I know is that I wanted to be good at it before the term “bucket list” was ever even invented*.
But now I’m not sure what getting really good at yoga means. I used to think I knew. Is it going really deep into your postures? Is it being able to twist your body like a pretzel? Is it reaching a perfectly meditative state while flowing through your practice? yeah, that’s probably what I originally thought being really good at yoga meant. But those were assumptions I made when I first started practicing yoga back in my 20’s. The same assumptions that most people, who are unfamiliar with yoga, may also make. Now I’m 43 and have been practicing yoga at least twice a week for many years and I no longer assume to know what being really good at yoga means, because I’ve had yoga experiences that go well beyond the ability to contort like a pretzel. Yes, I still want to go deep into the postures and yes, I still want to reach that perfectly elusive meditative state, but now I know that’s just the ego talking. Now I know that there is so much more to be experienced and discovered in the practice of yoga.
So, here’s a crazy idea! — I told my husband a few weeks ago.
I feel that the time is right for me to do a 200hr yoga teacher training — I said as I prepared for the rebuke.
I honestly didn’t know how he would react, since I’ve already reduced my working hours in the business to write a book (which is kicking my butt actually). So going for my yoga teacher training is virtually taking a break from taking a break.
To my surprise, he was supportive. I was surprised not because he supported me, he always does, but because I was having my own self doubts about the financial and time commitment of the program. Getting his validation meant that he believed in me even as I struggled to believe in myself and this meant the world to me.
The green light is now flashing before my eyes. Where to now?
Step 1: Find a 200hr yoga teacher training program
*The term bucket list is rather new. It was popularized by a 2007 movie of the same name starring Jack Nicholson and Morgan Freeman It sort of derives from the saying ‘to kick the bucket‘ which is a figure of speech meaning ‘to die’